Jaqui

Over and over I look in your eyes
you are all I desire
you have captured me
I want to hold you
I want to be close to you
I never want to let go

Genom mörkret kan jag se dig
Du kommer alltid finnas
Jag kan känna ditt hjärta i mitt
Ditt ansikte har jag memorerat

Jag ser upp mot allt du är
I mina ögon är du bra
Efter allt du sagt och gjort
Det är du

Så förnekad utav mörkret
Så ensam jag nu är
När du undrar vad jag känner
Det är bara en dröm

I sleep with the scars I wear that won’t heal

I’ve learned that nothing really lasts forever

I’m walking down this empty road to nowhere

I pass by the houses and blocks I once knew

My mama told me not to mess with sorrow

But I always did, I still do

I’m still breaking the rules


I feel the heat

and the tast of the kissing

Shattered by rain

and the wild holy war

I kick it up, I kick it down

 
Cos everytime I seem to fall down there

It’s a little bit funny

This feeling inside

How did I ever fall in love with you

I find the heart but then I hit the wall

Everytime I seem to fall in love

It has always been the same

That’s the call, that’s the game

That’s my real middle-name

and the pain stays the same 

Likt en drömmare stirrar ut i tomma intet
gör själen även så
Vetskapen om allt det förbjudna
får mitt hjärta att slå

Det som finnes i detta tomrum
skall snart förgås
Ett liv i all oändlighet odödlighet
kan liknande fås

Drömmaren söker svaret på frågorna
och finner det snart
Men i all dess sköna hämdlystnad
något väldigt klart

Tomrummet fylls av evig energi
tar inte slut en dag
Själen i all dess skinande ära
är aldrig svag

Tomrummet har utplånat den evige drömmaren
stark som få
En evig oändlighet av drömmar vaknar
syns först då

When this began
I had nothing to say
And I get lost in the nothingness inside of me
I was confused
And I let it all out to find
That I’m not the only person with these things in mind
Inside of me
But all that they can see the words revealed
Is the only real thing that I’ve got left to feel
Nothing to lose
Just stuck, hollow and alone
And the fault is my own, and the fault is my own

I wanna heal, I wanna feel what I thought was never real
I wanna let go of the pain I’ve felt so long
Erase all the pain till it’s gone
I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I’m close to something real
I wanna find something I’ve wanted all along
Somewhere I belong

And I’ve got nothing to say
I can’t believe I didn’t fall right down on my face
I was confused
Looking everywhere only to find
That it’s not the way I had imagined it all in my mind
So what am I
What do I have but negativity
’Cause I can’t justify the way, everyone is looking at me
Nothing to lose
Nothing to gain, hollow and alone
And the fault is my own, and the fault is my own

den här underbara dikten fick jag av min vän Jonas den 31 mars 2003.

Are we friends
Or are we not?
You told me once
But I forgot.
So tell me now
And tell me true
So I can say....
I’m here for you.
Of all the friends
I’ve ever met,
You’re the one
I won’t forget.
And if I die
Before you do,
I’ll go to heaven
And wait for you.
I’ll give the angel
Back their wings
And risk the loss
Of everything,
just to prove my friendship is true have a friend like you!